Not enough love

I feel like I didn't love on Seth enough while he was growing. Maybe I should talked to him more. And kissed moms belly more often. I wish I could go back 3 weeks and start all over. Loving on him telling him "I loved you" or buying him more clothes. Maybe if I did something a little more Seth would still be here in my arms. Not enough love? Is that why he is gone? Did I not love him as much as the others? Now I know I will love my siblings and my children forever and always. I never want this to happen ever again. Did I not love you enough Seth? Was I not a good big sister? What did I do wrong?



I guess maybe god loved you more then I could have ever loved you. Maybe he wanted to have you with him. Maybe there wasn't enough love here from us for you. Maybe you would have struggled maybe this is gods way for us to love you. Maybe we have to love you from heaven now.


Yup! I think that's how I will have to look it. And maybe that's how I'm going to have to love you. I'll just have to keep you in my heart because I wouldn't have gave you all the love you would have needed. Seth Josiah I love you so much I don't understand why you were taking away from me from us. But one day I hope to know, meet, and kiss you. One day Seth. I'll just have to keep waiting for that day to come.