One month in heaven

One month from when Seth was was born. I can't believe how fast that went by. I just wish he was here and I was holding me. But now I just get to think about him and look at his pictures trying to decide what he would look like right now or what he would be doing. Holding his head up? Smiling? What would he be doing if I were sitting here holding the little cutie. What is he doing in heaven? Is he doing what we would be if he were here? Oh I miss him so much right now. I wish I could hear him cry. Hold him tight. And kiss him all day. I guess I just have to ask god to love of him. Hug on him. And kiss him for me. Today his was gonna be friend Emery Ryder is coming into the world. They would have been a month apart and been bestest of friends. I want to meet him and hold him so bad. I don't know if it would be good for me. But I know in my heart it would be like having Seth here. Maybe they met each other while in passing. Maybe when Seth went to heaven then Emery and him got to meet each other. Maybe Seth and Emery will have some kinda of connection to each other. 3/18/12 will never be forgotten.