Spirit of god

I have been sitting in my room for the past hour with my headphones in trying to clear somethings out of my head.

It has become my anthem. I feel like ever since I have started doing worship band that I have more of a relationship with god. That I can lock myself in my room and just cry out to him when I am in need of him by my side. 

And trust me I need him more now then ever. There has been a few very heavy things going on in my family that has taken a toll on me and put into a lot of worry, hate, anger, and sadness.

Hopefully god can show me that every thing is going to be okay. That he is there by my side through the best of days and the worst of days.

Spirit of god won't you fall down like rain awaken our hearts I'm running to YOU! That's the part that is sticking to me the most right now.

Let your rain fall, Let your wind blow, Let your Spirit come down, Come down! This is my prayer for god to come through to me and let me know he is there. As someone i have looked up has said. He is my "Daddy" he is there for me when I am in need. When I am calling out to him. Screaming for his love to cover me.

All I can do is sit here with this prayer, this anthem blasting in my ears till I can fell my "daddy" there giving me a big hug holding me through my troubles, my hurt, my pain, and my tears.

I hope this post wasn't weird to most because this is what is coming from my heart. It's what I am singing out to my god and I know some like to keep their and gods time private I would rather share it. Let others feel what I feel.